out of my control

I’m sure the change in my blog look is pretty noticeable if you have been following along for a while. The past week has been a complete and utter mess with technology. To say that this has been a frustrating time with my site, would be an understatement. A few crazy things have happened with my site. I joked it was having a temper tantrum, but really, that is the only explanation because it just went crazy!

There have been days that I couldn’t even get a post up and published because it wouldn’t let me. Seriously frustrating. The thing that I was stressing out a lot about was missing posts in my 31 day series. I committed to writing about Finding Peace for 31 days and then was unable to even post on my own site. I spent a few days stressed over that, along with the fact that my site was a complete mess and it’s still not totally back to normal, but it’s getting there. 🙂

Then, yesterday as I drove to the pumpkin patch with my family, as I was stressing over it some more, I thought, “Well, it is what it is. I missed days. This wasn’t my plan. I tried my best. The site issue was out of my control, out of everyone’s control and there is nothing I can stress about now that will change that fact.”

Then a funny thing happened.

The weight of missing a few days in my 31 day series, just slipped away.

I planned to write about peace for 31 days. Yes, it was a daunting task, but I was going to do it. I was set on doing it. I think that’s why this has been so hard to swallow, I didn’t want to take any days off.

Then on Monday night, as the clock struck midnight (literally!), my site went crazy.

The rest of the week was spent trying to figure out how to get it fixed and how to get my content, comments, subscribers, etc, back.

I have shed tears over this.

I have stressed for hours on end.

It’s ironic because I am supposed to be writing about Finding Peace and then not being able to write about it, for almost a week, made me feel anything but peaceful.

One of the biggest struggles for me is finding peace in a situation like this.

A situation that I have no control over.

Again, I am thinking this was meant to happen while I was writing this series…because I needed to find a way to find peace in the situation.

Today, I have decided to let it go.

I can’t stress over the missed days anymore.

I don’t think I’ll be able to catch up before the end of the month, on Thursday. And it is what it is.

I’m just going to pick up where I had to leave off and go from here. 🙂

Thanks for bearing with me and the tech issues this past week. You guys are the best!

This is the 23rd post in a 31 day series about Finding Peace. You can find the rest of the posts in this series, here.